I dont wanna think about you anymore! Why do I keep thinking about you?! And I just wanna talk to you but I dont have anything to say really...
I can hear my heart crying out for you...
And it's crying out for love, for you.
I can't even write anymore or do anything I usually can. I feel like I've tried everything and nothing seems to work. I keep finding myself thinking of you. Replaying every moment that involved you. I wish it were as easy to write a paper for school as writing a blog about you or a letter for you.
WHAT THE FUCK
Universe, can you just please give me a break?!
I wanna tell you, but I'm afraid you will never understand just how much I think, feel, cry out for you.
WHY DO I STILL?
I wanna write until I don't feel anymore but I feel like I will fill this page and this day, this week, this week, maybe this lifetime, saying the same things in different ways because thats how much I feel for you and can write about you.
I can let my life pass me by, I just wanna make you understand...
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ANYMORE.
I just feel these things and no matter how much I say I get numb and been numbed, I still feel my chest heave, my tears still feel drenched with all the tears I still could cry.
I just wanna be connected to you, stay connected with you.
I'm torturing myself doing so...
I keep holding on when it's just so much easier in the long run to let go.
What's keeping me here?
It's all in my unconscious...
I wanna dream so I can get a glimpse of this reason,
unexplained, hidden, unaware