J's Thinking Cap.: Distinguished.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Distinguished.

I'm selfish.

I want people to put me first.

I want people to look out for me.

I want people to be there for me.

I want people to care about me and love me.

I want people to never leave my side.

But I don't even put myself first.

I don't even look out for me.

I care and love myself.

But sometimes, I leave my side to help another.

So how am I gonna expect all that from people?

It's impossible.

I need to work on myself.

I'm selfish.

I wish I wasn't.

I can't afford to be.

I'm hurting.

1 comment:

Adam AvalosJanuary 7, 2010 at 3:02 AM
“People are like dirt. They can either nourish you and help you grow as a person or they can stunt your growth and make you wilt and die.” -Plato

My solution, don't depend on anyone. You know how I feel about you occupying your time with these kind of thoughts but I really do hope you realize we're all here for ya bud. :)
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I can be this, I can be that. My mind is constantly in a whirlwind of thoughts that sometimes, even I get lost in them. I breathe emotion and think in poetry. I over think too much. I have mood swings. My mind is catalyzed by the people that make my experiences worthwhile. Sometimes, I think and speak too deeply. Other times, I am misunderstood. Most of the time, I contradict myself. All the time, I am in a state of passion. I can be a puzzle, and at times I am puzzled. I can be a riddle, and at times I am ridiculed. I know I'm not consistent but I know one thing is constant. I know I'll always be changing- I am a constantly changing metamorphosis.